Changes...

So, many changes have happened in the last year. I have gone from a mommy of two beautiful twin boys to a mommy of two incredibly energetic toddlers and now have one on the way.
We have moved back to where I belong...in Ventura. And I have been able to reunite with old friends who I haven't seen in ages.
It is funny how when you become a wife and a mommy so many people seem to walk out of your life. It is like we carry a Scarlet Letter that loudly proclaims to the world that not only are we off limits to men...but...*gasp* we have children!! And these two things some how have also branded us as "NO FUN".
There are days that I can't help but feel sorry for myself. There are moments...and I mean...fleeting and few and far between moments that I ask myself..."what did I get myself into?" But, when all is said and done I wouldn't trade it for the world. I wouldn't trade in their smiles, their hugs, the way they rest their head on my shoulder. There is not a day that I would rather be belting out "free bird" with a cockatil in my hand instead of singing the joyous songs of alphabet pal.
For my "old" friends, my life is not one of luxury and not one they would EVER desire to have...or at least not for the next 10 years. My life revolves around dirty diapers, teething, nap time and sleepless nights. I have nights that I cry now when I am up until midnight...3 years ago at midnight I was just getting started. My money used to be spent on designer purses and jeans, today that money is better spent buying frilly dresses, "big boy" shoes and toys. There were days when I would spend $100 on dinner and drinks and not blink an eye...now I think of how I could have spent the money more wisely.
But, I love these changes. I love putting my family first. I love waking up to my children and my husband. I take joy in finding THEM things and finding great deals on the clearance rack.
It is funny how life changes things. Changes your perspective. Your motives. Your hopes. Your dreams and your ambitions. Changes...as little or big as they may be...can completely change you as a person...and I suppose it is up to you to embrace the change...or to run from it.